The Blog Synopsis

Maybe I will never be
All the things that I wanna be
Now is not the time to cry
Now’s the time to find out why

In all the blogs I’ve written I don’t think I ever tried to explain what Multiple Sclerosis is. I’ve written in detail previously about how I’m dealing with it and what I’m learning while tackling it. And, as cheesy as it may sound, learning about myself in the process. We all know how to use google (even you Mam) so I won’t bore you with the science behind MS. To be honest I don’t completely understand that myself. I hear words such as demyelination and clinically isolated syndrome regularly but to put it in simple terms (which are the only terms I do understand), it’s as if there is a delay in the messages being sent by your brain to parts of your body. Sclerosis is another word for scarring and I have multiple scars on my brain (6 by the last count). There’s a lot more to it than that but that’s my very basic understanding.Below is a list of the most common symptoms for people with MS. I’ll try go through as many as I can relate to as they can apply to anyone really. MS likes to bundle loads of these symptoms together just to make you feel extra confused about what the hell is going on with your own body.

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I’ve covered nearly all my symptoms in previous blogs. I’ve yet to make reference to numbness or tingling but I do occasionally feel a tingle/numbness in the ring finger on my right hand. I never brought this up with a nurse or anything as the other symptoms I have had were much more prominent. It may very well be nothing but just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not after you. It’s a very minor thing at the moment but something I will keep an eye on.


Dizziness was one of my first symptoms. This led to almost permanent imbalance. In my MRI Boogie blog I talk about having to hold onto my Mam to get around buying Christmas presents a couple of years back. I was expecting to fall flat on my face at any time. Luckily I didn’t. I remained that way for a few months.

I can’t say headaches have regularly appeared, however, I do remember waking up each morning feeling hungover when I was particularly bad. Panadol was regularly by my bedside. MS brings with it a totally different kind of fear to that of the dreaded hangover.

Vision Problems

Headaches & dizziness coincided with blurred vision and being unable to see the computer screen in front of me in work. In my second blog I discuss how this caused problems for me with the most simple of tasks such as crossing the road. I recall having to rely on cabinets to hold me up while walking around in work. I foolishly tried to get on with things for a brief period but that didn’t last too long as referenced in my Brown Hula Hoops blog.

Cognitive Dysfunction

Full Definition of cognitive. 1 : of, relating to, being, or involving conscious intellectual activity (as thinking, reasoning, or remembering) <cognitive impairment> 2 : based on or capable of being reduced to empirical factual knowledge.

“If you’re picking up a pen imagine it a sword”. 

The reason why I’ve input the definition of cognitive is because I didn’t know what it meant until I was told that MS causes cognitive issues. And it’s true it does. Through blogging I feel my vocabulary has increased, however, this may not be evident if we were to have a conversation. I regularly forget the point or the punchline and need assistance with the next word even though it’s on the tip of my tongue. I get my point across much better when I sit back and think rather than having an immediate response. Although having time to think’s not always an option. I work much better via written word than day-to-day conversation. Still though the words will get there…… eventually.

Depression / Emotional changes

“If I have seen further, it is by standing on the shoulders of giants.”

I’ve seen MS and depression first hand. Both separate instances. I’ve seen how they’ve both affected those around me. I don’t know if I can control MS long-term but I can certainly try. I talk about Australian Professor George Jelinek in my Agreeing Terms  blog. His book Overcoming Multiple Sclerosis gave me hope. There are days, even weeks, where I don’t exercise regularly and don’t eat as healthy as I know I should. I can usually feel a change in my mood once this happens and those extra few minutes in bed can turn into an extra few hours. In my MS Snowflakes blog I refer to my only prior experience of MS. I regularly think of that as well as encountering depression and remind myself that these struggles are real and I am by no means immune to them. This inspires me to get up and keep going. The MS battle will most likely never end and it’s only against myself. I feel that seeing those affected, by both MS and depression, at their weakest has given me strength and I am forever in their debt.

We attended an MS morning last Saturday and there was a talk about Anxiety and Depression by Dr Harry Barry. We found it very interesting and would recommend anyone suffering with either or both to look him up.


Fatigue, tiredness, lack of motivation, exhaustion, however you want to describe it, it’s constantly knocking on the MS door and it doesn’t look to be going away anytime soon. I talk about it in more detail in Against the Ropes. It appears to be the main symptom that anyone with MS is affected by and I’m no exception.

Bladder / Bowel Dysfunction

I think most people suffer with these type of issues at one stage or another. I remember when I start going for walks in the hope that it would assist with some sort of recovery. After a few minutes I was rushing home for the toilet. I didn’t put this down to MS initially as I’m renowned for having a weak bladder. Once I read up a bit and realised it was a possible symptom of MS I start planning my walks better and not drinking for an hour before leaving the house. This seemed to work for me.

Pain / Muscle Spasms / Walking Difficulty

My difficulty with walking was primarily down to dizziness and blurred vision, however, there are many who find it much more difficult for a variety of reasons such as pain and muscles spasms when walking. As soon as I was told I may have MS I thought of a wheelchair. There are fellow MS’ers who do rely on walking aids and they’re the real warriors to me. I’m just touching the surface and, although I don’t intend on going any closer with my own symptoms, I’m inspired by those whose lives have been altered significantly more than mine because of MS. I go to a Meet Up group once a month which was set up by Emma who I mentioned in my very first blog I have the power. It’s important to keep in contact with people on the same boat even if our journeys and destinations may be different.

I try to keep up to date with all things MS without letting it consume my life. I’m nearly a year blogging which I’m quite proud of considering it took me a good 6 months to even be able to admit to myself I had MS. Sharing my story helps me and I’ve got a lot of extremely positive feedback which is very humbling. I’m no longer ashamed I have MS. I’m not fearful of it. But I will always be mindful of it.



  1. Matt says:

    Great blog Keith. A timely reminder for us all to take care of ourselves.

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  2. Lovely blog post Keith. Really like your last few lines 😊

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    1. keifib says:

      Thanks Rosie! Hope to catch up at the next Meet Up 🙂

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  3. Donna says:

    Good job bro 👍🏻 proud of you every day xxx

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  4. Michelle says:

    Another great read Keitho! Reminds me of all the different ways it can affect a person, and how strong you are in the way you look after yourself and your positive attitude xx

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  5. Ciara Goragely says:

    Very well written and interesting Keith.. hope you’re keeping well 😀

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  6. Bernie Byrne says:

    Proud of you son,keep the faith xx

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  7. Helen says:

    You have such a flair for writing with a mix of honesty and Witt Keith.. Learned so much from your blog xx

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    1. keifib says:

      Thanks Helen! Really appreciate your feedback 😊


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